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Depression and Mind Games. The Legacy of Larry B. Risvold.

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“If a man is deceitful with those he claims an affinity  for how much more so will he be to strangers.”

“No more than you can make a silk purse from a sow’s ear can you make a boy into a man by putting him in a uniform. A uniform is the mask of a coward who would blame others for his evil deeds, whereas, a man will own up to the responsibility of correcting his own misdeeds.”

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save“Rape by deception is a crime in which the perpetrator has the victim’s sexual consent and compliance, but gains it through deception or fraudulent statements or actions.”

Depression is real. It should never be used as someone’s toy. It is a game of Russian Roulette and the wrong spin could pull up the round in the chamber.

What I am about to write may cause me to be attacked or ridiculed but it was the mind games of one person that brought me to the verge of taking my life and if not for the concern of friends I would no longer be here today. And if this in any way helps to save another life then what I will go through is worth it.

thbepzgrm8Roughly three and a half years ago I became involved in an affair with a married man. I warned him going in about my depression and he didn’t even bother to understand what I was saying, mainly because he was willing to sacrifice my life for his own pleasure. As the affair progressed I fell in love and he was well aware of my feelings but proceeded to use that to his advantage. He would punish me by withholding his attention until I played nice as it were. He made sure the entire relationship revolved around what he wanted and this of course started to wear on my depression. I was down to 96 lb., from 120, when he finally deserted me after promising that would never happen. But that was just one of the many lies he told me.

In the beginning he was telling me they were talking about a divorce, that he no longer loved her and would leave her as soon as he got his disability from the military. He was turned down for his disability and that changed the way he treated me.  He refused to talk to me when I really needed him to and when I would tell him how sick I was getting from his coldness toward me he would tell me to just get over it. I repeatedly told him for a depressed person that wasn’t possible.  He never cared.quote-a-man-who-becomes-used-to-deluding-himself-who-fails-to-face-his-own-faults-with-revolutionary-ashraf-dehghani-117-39-90

He told me his wife had cheated on him right after they were married and he wasn’t even sure his son was going to be his. He said she had other affairs over the years. I can only wonder now if she ever cheated on him at all or he was just playing for sympathy.
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Over the years he would say things to make me feel he did love me and then he would turn around and pull the rug out from under me by saying cold and hurtful things. And yes, he did tell me he loved me. I now know what he meant was he loved the way I made him feel.  And any time I raised concerns he would assure me I meant something to him. That he wasn’t going anywhere. Lies on top of lies on top of lies. He would promise things and never follow through in what only now appears as trying to keep me down and submissive.thv13wj08u

He said he would leave her but she would get his money and even said to me one time he would kill her if she did get it. He told me he loathed her with such venom in his voice it scared me at the moment. He repeatedly told me and his friends how he wanted to just get away from her.

thna25tv3xWhen I would be hurt and crying he would laugh at me and tell me to grow a thick skin. He would push for sex even when I was crying. He pushed for sex even when I was in a weakened state. It was all about him and satisfying him. He never cared about me or what became of me. I honestly think he did want me to die. That would have solved his problem.

During the last political campaign he even was so cold as to attack a candidate over his “alleged” infidelity. When I asked him to stop as he too was having an affair he said it was ok because he wasn’t running for office. The affair we had was on going  when he ran for office and when I mentioned it he simply said we didn’t get caught.  I was hurt he had did this but he didn’t care. His attacks got worse against this candidate.

He is a retired Marine who talks about honor but has no honor. It meant nothing to him to hurt someone who could least afford it. If I had taken my life he would never had cared. He never checked to see if I was ok. I think he had hoped I would take my life.

thThank you Larry B. Risvold for ruining my life and destroying a loving heart just because you could, and for what?  SEX. Thank you for raping my soul.

If you are married and are thinking about an affair please reconsider it because a moments pleasure isn’t worth the life of another.

Update: I believe Mr. Risvold has been riding by my house in an attempt to intimidate me. I have no proof but it sounds like his dog that has a distinctive voice.  I have witnessed him beat his dog in the past Just for barking. And he has left bruises on my arms showing no concern .  I do not know what he is capable of. At the time I thought he was unaware of what he was doing but in light of remarks he has made and what appears to be an attempt to harass me has me worried. Mr. Risvold lives a life of illusion and any thing that threatens his appearance to those around him becomes a threat to him.

Bruises Mr. Risvold left on my arm.

Bruises Mr. Risvold left on my arms. Bruises Mr. Risvold left on my arm.

 

Update:

 

You tell yourself over and over exactly what you want to say hoping it all comes out clear but I can never express enough or in adequate words what hell I live through everyday with the depression. And when someone comes along and plays on the weakness of my disability I have to wonder what kind of person would do that knowingly. I don’t know if Mr. Risvold returned to my world just to get me to remove this article or if his feelings even border on sincerity. For starters, he basically used the excuse of his son finding this article to contact me, never even bothering to read the article. He finally did read it and told me I needed to remove it as I was only hurting myself. Mr. Risvold overlooks the fact that I don’t give heed to what others think of me. If they want to look down on me they will always find an excuse. People who know me know how I am but those who know Mr. Risvold only know a façade. He did later admit he thought it hurt him. Seems the only ones talking negatively about it to him was his family.

Yes, even knowing the article was out there he wanted to resume our relationship. He said he had regretted pushing me away. That he thought about me all the time. Just more lies on top of more lies? I hardly know any more. Publicly he has to pretend she is the important one because of the kids and privately I am the one that is important. What kind of reasoning is that? The “kids” are adults. But mainly it is the money. I guess it takes a lot of money to live a lie so your friends and neighbors never know the truth. That there is no real love or substance in your home. Even his wife admits she doesn’t love him and only stays for the money.

4eb9f332f67d3080f93bf873f362b5efI often wonder how Mr. Risvold says, “Simper Fi” with a straight face. The goddess he honors, Fides, is also the goddess of honesty and trustworthiness, Mr. Risvold seems foreign to both concepts. Maybe trusting him to be honest was a fool’s errand.  It reminds me of the court scene in A Few Good Men where one marine says to the other something to the effect of hurting the ones they should have protected. Mr. Risvold would say “Simper Fi” means faithful to God but this is the same guy who held his middle finger toward God in my living room because the weather was going to be too bad to go boating. Not very faithful to God at all.

He kept telling me I was the one he wanted to hurt the least but his actions were to hurt me the most. I think he did things purposefully in order to make me cry just so he could watch me in pain, like it made him proud of himself.  He did take advantage of my feelings for him and it has cost me a lot. I am sure it will cost him nothing. A few slaps on the back and a few “Atta boys” and he will be so proud of his accomplishment of ruining another’s  life. But he can never be proud of being an honest man. I am sure he will be told “the whore deserved it” and he will just laugh in a drunken stupor as he downs another beer.  My emotional state has left me sick and all I can hear is Mr. Risvold saying, “Get over it.” He always thought the depression was something to laugh at and take advantage of. Just a means to an end. But then what should one expect of a man who put on a Marine uniform and trolled a church to pick up women? He brings shame to the uniform and only hides behind it because it lets him pretend he is the man he will never be.14910295_1098933856893819_7745232726036217317_n

thtp3xnc65Update: It seems Mr. Risvold doesn’t know what “over” is. He has tried sending a friend over to use me like he did. I don’t know if it is because I cut him off entirely and that made him mad or if he just feels a need to keep hurting me. He has ridden by my house when I have repeatedly asked him in the past not to. There is no reason for him to unless he is trying to hurt or harass me. He has sent me an email threatening to sue me but backed off when I reminded him what would come out in court. If he saw this post as an issue why not sue when I first posted it instead of using it as an excuse to pick up where he left off? At this point I don’t think he would be stupid enough to hurt me but I am finding out I never really knew him. He has told me I haven’t seen him when he is really mad. And anyone capable of the damage he has already caused and thought so light of is capable of anything.  My God, he told a friend he needed to “get some of that” because “she needs it”. No Mr. Risvold, she needed someone to love her, not use her. You just needed someone to use.
You wanted everything to be all about you. Well I made it all about you.


Note: No apology for enabling him to do this the whole marriage. She is just as guilty for allowing the bad behavior.

15094458_1256190581068824_7317098535632786135_nparents-be-what-you-want-them-to-beA little touch on irony…Mr. Risvold once told me when he was overseas he used the women that the sailors were keeping up because he wasn’t going to pay for sex. If what he told me was true he is now keeping up a woman who other men are using for sex without paying for it.

Everyone told me Mr. Risvold was a liar, a user and, to put it politely, a coward. I chose to give him the benefit of the doubt. It was a mistake and I apologize to everyone for not listening. Mr. Risvold has no problem with others living with the damage he has caused but takes issue with being exposed for causing it. To Mr. Risvold I will say “I am sorry you were never the man I thought you were. I am sorry you have no self-respect but that does not give you the right to disrespect others. I am sorry you never felt I deserved the truth. But mostly I am sorry I trusted a guy who felt it was ok to send another guy to my house to get sex based on lies.”


Lee Bright…The Next Closet Progressive?

I guess the best replacement for Lindsey Graham should be a guy who wants more government intrusion in your life. A quick look at his site is all it takes to see how much he supports bigger government intrusion into the lives of Americans.

Reading from his site “There are many alternatives that have proven to be successful such as charter schools, real school choice that supports private schools and home-schooling as well as programs where private and public schools work together.
South Carolina needs to attract the type of businesses that will strengthen the state’s economy and in turn improve communities.  This type of economic goal requires nothing short of a school system that produces a competitive workforce.”

Translation, Bright is for government control of private and home schooling as well as public schools. He has tried to introduce legislation (S 0279) to promote tax credits for private schools. Sounds good until you realize a tax credit is the same as receiving money from the government which the Supreme Court has said gives the government control. This would open the door for Common Core in ALL education.

But what is more interesting was his attempt to make the office of State Superintendent of Education an appointed office and remove the people’s right to elect same. That seems to be another goal of Senator Bright, to make several elected offices appointed positions, mainly judges. He has introduced bills, S 0197 & S 0200, that takes the choice of Administrative Law court judges, Supreme Court justices, Appeals court judges and Circuit Court judges out of the hands of the people and make them appointed offices. How better to remove power from the people.

In his bio Bright is listed as a member of the Board of Director for Palmetto Family Council, an offshoot of James Dobson’s Focus on the Family, a front group for Federal take over of private education. In an article “Behind The Conservative Curtain” (See link below) we read,

Charter Schools:  Same Old Goals 2000

Charter Schools, and Choice (vouchers & tuition tax credits) have been  incorporated into the GOALS 2000 legislation:

 

Public Law 103-227GOALS  2000: Educate America Act [1994] SEC. 308 State Use of [GOALS 2000] Funding-(b)  Each state that receives an allotment under this title shall(2) use the  remainder of the assistance…to implement the State improvement plan, [for  activities] such as …(I) promoting… public charter schools and other  mechanisms for increasing choice among public schools…(J) supporting  activities [where] schools contract with private management organizations to  reform a school.

It is  important to note that the above sub-section (J) suggests a plan to move public  schools under “private management.”

In my article “South Carolina’s Fed Gun Grab Enabling Bill…S 115 “Constitutional Carry” Act.”  I have shown how Bright has tried to introduce legislation that would enable  Federal agents, as well as officers from other states, free range in SC. He has no problem with pro-gun legislation because he wants to enable the feds to take your guns.

Then there was S 0185 which would put everyone on the government dole. Known as the “Fair Tax” we are seeing Cloward/Piven  rear it’s ugly head. Forget the welfare rolls, let’s get everyone on board with the tax rolls.

Links for better understanding of what is being supported by Lee Bright:

http://www.newswithviews.com/Nelson/kelleigh195.htm

Charter Schools, Character Education & the Eugenics Internationale
Behind the Conservative Curtain:
Pseudo Grassroots Organizations Front
for Corporate/Government Takeover

The Intelligent Student’s Guide to the New World Order
Update:

When I wrote this article I used a link on Bright’s website that
linked to the SC Legislation site to see what bills he sponsored. That link, http://www.scstatehouse.gov/sponsorsearch.php ,
has since disappeared. Does he have something to hide? I also discovered that
the Mace Group designed his
website. Curious.

Update:    I have recently discovered, according to his statement of economic interest with the SC State Ethics Commission, that Bright attended an ALEC (American Legislative Exchange Council) conference and received travel expenses from Mulikin Law Firm, the state corporate co-chair of ALEC in SC. For those unaware, ALEC is a non-profit where legislators and corporations come together to write model legislation for the legislators to come home and introduce. I also learned ALEC has model legislation in support of TTIP & TTP. Included in these treaties is the investor-to-state dispute settlement (ITSDS). This is where corporations in a state can call for arbitration if any laws are passed that they believe will cost them future revenue. This gets into the billions of dollars.

Well,  Bright has introduced S 82 (120th Congress)  which lowers the corporate tax base in an attempt to get companies to come to SC, economic developement if you will, which sounds great except for the looming ITSDS that ALEC is pushing. It also begs the question, where does the missing revenue for the state come from? What if no new business comes to town? Why not rid the homeowners of the burden of keeping up infrastructure that sits empty or puts the real strain on infrastructure if occupied? Will these companies or their new employees pay your property taxes if you can’t? Why not look out for all the people of the state, the job he is supposed to do, instead of a select few?  And who gets to pick up the tab if the state loses arbitration?

Sorry, but if it walks like a duck , quacks like a duck and takes money from Bank of America like a duck….

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The Congressional Two-step with Mick Mulvaney

I always enjoy asking a question and getting an answer that directs the subject in another direction because the person you question doesn’t want to answer the question at hand. This is what appears to have happened when I questioned House Representative Mick Mulvaney about the 5th Amendment. The Congressional two-step begins.

Under the 5th Amendment you are under NO obligation to tell the government anything that they may one day use against you in court so how can congress pass a law that says you have to tell them something? You would think asking a lawyer about this would be a simple question. But No.

Mulvaney starts with “I get this question a lot.” but proceeds to go back to the 2nd Amendment because I used the CWP as an example. My question was about the 5th. When I finally get him to speak to the 5th Amendment he states, “The social convention over the course of the last 200 years is we are willing to make some limitations on our own [rights].” WHAT? “Social convention” is a reason for the government to step on my rights? Where is that spelled out in the Constitution? He continues, “You can waive any of your Constitutional rights”. Actually you can’t but that was an argument for another time. But even if I could where does it say I have to in order to appease government? Because that is now “the social norm”? Really Mick?

Later I questioned him again. And again he dances. This time the question went to the 16th Amendment and the Supreme court ruling that the 16th Amendment gave Congress no new taxing authority. He does go into a story about a college professor who said he would give an automatic A on an exam to any student who can show the section of the code that says you have to pay an income tax.

So what does the code say…

“Title 26 CFR Ch. 1 (4-1-03 Edition) (iii) The purpose of publishing revenue rulings and revenue procedures in the Internal Revenue Bulletin is to promote correct and uniform application of the tax laws by Internal Revenue Service employees and to assist taxpayers in attaining maximum voluntary compliance by informing Service personnel and the public of National Office interpretations of the internal revenue laws, related statues, treaties, regulations, and statements of Service procedures affecting the rights and duties of taxpayers. Therefore – issues and answers involving substantive tax under the jurisdiction of the Internal Revenue Service will be published in the Internal Revenue Bulletin.”

I have been to several of these Town hall meetings and always leave feeling like I just danced with a master. Is it the lawyer or the politician I just danced with? Is there a difference? But Mick was right. Social convention does allow for a lot of things that an informed populace would stand against. Or at least one would hope they would.

He may not like my questions but at least he is willing to listen and put himself out there.


What Revolution?

The one that will never come? The one that never came? With all the rights the people of this country have seen disappear there never was a revolution. What would make the people think there ever will be one?

“The Government will never get my guns.”

“The people will fight back if there is a gun confiscation.”

No. The government is already taking your guns and no-one is fighting back.  Some are even helping. Every person who applied for a Concealed Weapons Permit (CWP) has been in league with the government. You have gone to the government and asked “Permission” to exercise a God-given right. And in doing so you have signed a contract giving up that right.  You’ve even given up your 5th Amendment right just by filling out the form. You know, the part that says you don’t have to be a witness against yourself.

Juries everyday find people guilty of crimes involving “illegal guns”, generally meaning they are not permitted to own or carry them. But this is a violation of the rights of the person possessing the gun. So why is it allowed?

It is allowed because the people have been conditioned to accept it. And the conditioning will continue and the people will not revolt. They will find more and more excuses to pass more and more laws and through “law enforcement” pick us off one by one until there are none left. They have no reason to go door to door to take your guns because eventually you will give them up.

”But they won’t get MY gun.”

Look at your child or grandchild. Would you hold on to your gun if the only way to feed or clothe that child was by giving up your gun? Would you get in a gun battle with a government entity who would have custody of that child should your efforts fail? You think the government doesn’t already know the answer to these questions?

Look at what you have given up already…

  • Freedom of speech… From “Free Speech” zones to fear of the “political climate” people are not only afraid to speak their minds but afraid to be associated with anyone who does.
  • Peaceful Assembly…When people are told they must have a “permit” (Permission) to assemble then the right is gone. And anyone who applies for the “permit” has helped to destroy that right.  And anyone who has enforced that “permit” has violated the rights of the person who either refused to apply or the person who was coerced into applying for the permit. (“Papers please.”)
  • Petitioning the Government for Redress of Grievance… Why does no-one do this? The government should be so bogged down in paperwork there should be time for little else. Oh, that’s right, at some point some government employee will say, “You really should get a lawyer.” Now comes all the lovely fees.
  • Unreasonable searches and seizures… “Probable Cause”. Need I say more? The people have been so led to believe that it is OK to “search and/or seize” just because an officer thinks it is OK, especially if “You have nothing to hide.”. Have we really come to the point we think others should have unlimited power over us whether we have anything to hide or not? (If your answer is “Yes” please defriend me on Facebook.)
  • To be confronted with witnesses against you…”Confidential informants” The no-see-ums of Law Enforcement. (This alone should get jurors to judge against LE.) Obtaining witnesses in your favor… Not if a judge thinks it brings no merit to the case for whatever reason a judge decides. Who gave them this power?
  • Assistance of counsel… I bet you thought that meant a “lawyer”, right?  That is what they want you to believe. But “counsel” is anyone who can counsel you on your rights.
  • Right to trial by jury… How many have waved this right and paid a fine because a trial would just be too inconvenient? As long as the “state” makes money and it costs them nothing they will continue to harass.
  • “nor excessive fines”… We are fined for everything and always in excess. The bait and switch is to call it a “fee” and impose it on everything.  And the reasoning is that by going about your daily life you might commit a crime.
  • “nor cruel and unusual punishments”… You go to jail just because an officer doesn’t like your attitude, or worse yet, he doesn’t like you. Maybe you are “known” to LE as someone who doesn’t like them depriving people of their rights, maybe they are told to watch for any opportunity to arrest or harass you. (You think these guys won’t enforce any gun law, constitutional or not?)
  • Rights retained by the people… The 9th Amendment states that if the people wish to retain their rights there is NOTHING contained in the Constitution that can be construed as to deprive them of that right.
  • Your 10th Amendment rights… “States Rights” is what this is pushed as but the last statement is “or, to the people.” How have we managed to let others use this as a way to remove federal power over us just to be replaced by State power? If your tyrant is local is he any less a tyrant?

Recently my Mother passed away and as I jumped through the governments hoops of giving up my rights to settle her affairs (Yeah, they got me).I couldn’t help but wonder how it got to this point.

Because people always give way to government. Why? Because they say they know what is best? What makes them the experts on what is best? “Because things are different now”? How are they different? “They have bigger weapons”? Why do “they” have bigger weapons? Who gave them the right to have bigger weapons? “Because you will go to jail”? Why will you go to jail? Why are juries so dumbed down? What gives the government the right to arrest you for exercising a right?

The capitulation will continue and they will never have to fear a revolution.


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