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Depression and Mind Games. The Legacy of Larry B. Risvold.

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“If a man is deceitful with those he claims an affinity  for how much more so will he be to strangers.”

“No more than you can make a silk purse from a sow’s ear can you make a boy into a man by putting him in a uniform. A uniform is the mask of a coward who would blame others for his evil deeds, whereas, a man will own up to the responsibility of correcting his own misdeeds.”

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save“Rape by deception is a crime in which the perpetrator has the victim’s sexual consent and compliance, but gains it through deception or fraudulent statements or actions.”

Depression is real. It should never be used as someone’s toy. It is a game of Russian Roulette and the wrong spin could pull up the round in the chamber.

What I am about to write may cause me to be attacked or ridiculed but it was the mind games of one person that brought me to the verge of taking my life and if not for the concern of friends I would no longer be here today. And if this in any way helps to save another life then what I will go through is worth it.

thbepzgrm8Roughly three and a half years ago I became involved in an affair with a married man. I warned him going in about my depression and he didn’t even bother to understand what I was saying, mainly because he was willing to sacrifice my life for his own pleasure. As the affair progressed I fell in love and he was well aware of my feelings but proceeded to use that to his advantage. He would punish me by withholding his attention until I played nice as it were. He made sure the entire relationship revolved around what he wanted and this of course started to wear on my depression. I was down to 96 lb., from 120, when he finally deserted me after promising that would never happen. But that was just one of the many lies he told me.

In the beginning he was telling me they were talking about a divorce, that he no longer loved her and would leave her as soon as he got his disability from the military. He was turned down for his disability and that changed the way he treated me.  He refused to talk to me when I really needed him to and when I would tell him how sick I was getting from his coldness toward me he would tell me to just get over it. I repeatedly told him for a depressed person that wasn’t possible.  He never cared.quote-a-man-who-becomes-used-to-deluding-himself-who-fails-to-face-his-own-faults-with-revolutionary-ashraf-dehghani-117-39-90

He told me his wife had cheated on him right after they were married and he wasn’t even sure his son was going to be his. He said she had other affairs over the years. I can only wonder now if she ever cheated on him at all or he was just playing for sympathy.
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Over the years he would say things to make me feel he did love me and then he would turn around and pull the rug out from under me by saying cold and hurtful things. And yes, he did tell me he loved me. I now know what he meant was he loved the way I made him feel.  And any time I raised concerns he would assure me I meant something to him. That he wasn’t going anywhere. Lies on top of lies on top of lies. He would promise things and never follow through in what only now appears as trying to keep me down and submissive.thv13wj08u

He said he would leave her but she would get his money and even said to me one time he would kill her if she did get it. He told me he loathed her with such venom in his voice it scared me at the moment. He repeatedly told me and his friends how he wanted to just get away from her.

thna25tv3xWhen I would be hurt and crying he would laugh at me and tell me to grow a thick skin. He would push for sex even when I was crying. He pushed for sex even when I was in a weakened state. It was all about him and satisfying him. He never cared about me or what became of me. I honestly think he did want me to die. That would have solved his problem.

During the last political campaign he even was so cold as to attack a candidate over his “alleged” infidelity. When I asked him to stop as he too was having an affair he said it was ok because he wasn’t running for office. The affair we had was on going  when he ran for office and when I mentioned it he simply said we didn’t get caught.  I was hurt he had did this but he didn’t care. His attacks got worse against this candidate.

He is a retired Marine who talks about honor but has no honor. It meant nothing to him to hurt someone who could least afford it. If I had taken my life he would never had cared. He never checked to see if I was ok. I think he had hoped I would take my life.

thThank you Larry B. Risvold for ruining my life and destroying a loving heart just because you could, and for what?  SEX. Thank you for raping my soul.

If you are married and are thinking about an affair please reconsider it because a moments pleasure isn’t worth the life of another.

Update: I believe Mr. Risvold has been riding by my house in an attempt to intimidate me. I have no proof but it sounds like his dog that has a distinctive voice.  I have witnessed him beat his dog in the past Just for barking. And he has left bruises on my arms showing no concern .  I do not know what he is capable of. At the time I thought he was unaware of what he was doing but in light of remarks he has made and what appears to be an attempt to harass me has me worried. Mr. Risvold lives a life of illusion and any thing that threatens his appearance to those around him becomes a threat to him.

Bruises Mr. Risvold left on my arm.

Bruises Mr. Risvold left on my arms. Bruises Mr. Risvold left on my arm.

 

Update:

 

You tell yourself over and over exactly what you want to say hoping it all comes out clear but I can never express enough or in adequate words what hell I live through everyday with the depression. And when someone comes along and plays on the weakness of my disability I have to wonder what kind of person would do that knowingly. I don’t know if Mr. Risvold returned to my world just to get me to remove this article or if his feelings even border on sincerity. For starters, he basically used the excuse of his son finding this article to contact me, never even bothering to read the article. He finally did read it and told me I needed to remove it as I was only hurting myself. Mr. Risvold overlooks the fact that I don’t give heed to what others think of me. If they want to look down on me they will always find an excuse. People who know me know how I am but those who know Mr. Risvold only know a façade. He did later admit he thought it hurt him. Seems the only ones talking negatively about it to him was his family.

Yes, even knowing the article was out there he wanted to resume our relationship. He said he had regretted pushing me away. That he thought about me all the time. Just more lies on top of more lies? I hardly know any more. Publicly he has to pretend she is the important one because of the kids and privately I am the one that is important. What kind of reasoning is that? The “kids” are adults. But mainly it is the money. I guess it takes a lot of money to live a lie so your friends and neighbors never know the truth. That there is no real love or substance in your home. Even his wife admits she doesn’t love him and only stays for the money.

4eb9f332f67d3080f93bf873f362b5efI often wonder how Mr. Risvold says, “Simper Fi” with a straight face. The goddess he honors, Fides, is also the goddess of honesty and trustworthiness, Mr. Risvold seems foreign to both concepts. Maybe trusting him to be honest was a fool’s errand.  It reminds me of the court scene in A Few Good Men where one marine says to the other something to the effect of hurting the ones they should have protected. Mr. Risvold would say “Simper Fi” means faithful to God but this is the same guy who held his middle finger toward God in my living room because the weather was going to be too bad to go boating. Not very faithful to God at all.

He kept telling me I was the one he wanted to hurt the least but his actions were to hurt me the most. I think he did things purposefully in order to make me cry just so he could watch me in pain, like it made him proud of himself.  He did take advantage of my feelings for him and it has cost me a lot. I am sure it will cost him nothing. A few slaps on the back and a few “Atta boys” and he will be so proud of his accomplishment of ruining another’s  life. But he can never be proud of being an honest man. I am sure he will be told “the whore deserved it” and he will just laugh in a drunken stupor as he downs another beer.  My emotional state has left me sick and all I can hear is Mr. Risvold saying, “Get over it.” He always thought the depression was something to laugh at and take advantage of. Just a means to an end. But then what should one expect of a man who put on a Marine uniform and trolled a church to pick up women? He brings shame to the uniform and only hides behind it because it lets him pretend he is the man he will never be.14910295_1098933856893819_7745232726036217317_n

thtp3xnc65Update: It seems Mr. Risvold doesn’t know what “over” is. He has tried sending a friend over to use me like he did. I don’t know if it is because I cut him off entirely and that made him mad or if he just feels a need to keep hurting me. He has ridden by my house when I have repeatedly asked him in the past not to. There is no reason for him to unless he is trying to hurt or harass me. He has sent me an email threatening to sue me but backed off when I reminded him what would come out in court. If he saw this post as an issue why not sue when I first posted it instead of using it as an excuse to pick up where he left off? At this point I don’t think he would be stupid enough to hurt me but I am finding out I never really knew him. He has told me I haven’t seen him when he is really mad. And anyone capable of the damage he has already caused and thought so light of is capable of anything.  My God, he told a friend he needed to “get some of that” because “she needs it”. No Mr. Risvold, she needed someone to love her, not use her. You just needed someone to use.
You wanted everything to be all about you. Well I made it all about you.


Note: No apology for enabling him to do this the whole marriage. She is just as guilty for allowing the bad behavior.

15094458_1256190581068824_7317098535632786135_nparents-be-what-you-want-them-to-beA little touch on irony…Mr. Risvold once told me when he was overseas he used the women that the sailors were keeping up because he wasn’t going to pay for sex. If what he told me was true he is now keeping up a woman who other men are using for sex without paying for it.

Everyone told me Mr. Risvold was a liar, a user and, to put it politely, a coward. I chose to give him the benefit of the doubt. It was a mistake and I apologize to everyone for not listening. Mr. Risvold has no problem with others living with the damage he has caused but takes issue with being exposed for causing it. To Mr. Risvold I will say “I am sorry you were never the man I thought you were. I am sorry you have no self-respect but that does not give you the right to disrespect others. I am sorry you never felt I deserved the truth. But mostly I am sorry I trusted a guy who felt it was ok to send another guy to my house to get sex based on lies.”


You have a right to Life, Liberty and whatever Lee Bright thinks is moral?

So much for the separation of powers in Lee Bright’s mind. He thinks Congress should be able to control two branches, both the legislative and the judiciary.

I don’t want to choose how other people live their lives and don’t want them pushing their choices on me. Lee Bright, however, wants to tell you how to live your life and feels he should be able to impeach any Supreme Court jurist who doesn’t agree with him. I never knew it was the role of The Supreme Court to decide the morality of a person’s lifestyle. I just thought it was their job to interpret law.

“Congress ought to stand up and do its job and impeach one of these federal judges. And I think when you do that, being a federal judge is a pretty good gig, and I think if you’ll impeach just one, the rest of them will do the right thing. And they’ll do it out of necessity, because self-preservation is an instinct that so many folks have.” Lee Bright at a TEA Party Express meeting in Utah.

Is Sen. Bright saying the Supreme Court needs to be the judge of morality? Whose morality? Even Christ forbade such a judgement. “Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.” Matthew 7:1-2

So, where does all this legislating morality come from? According to his bio he was on the Board of Directors of Palmetto Family Council, an offshoot of James Dobson’s Focus on the Family. In Dobson’s book, Dare to discipline, “he places a needed emphasis on discipline by structure,” but he draws from a Skinnerian ideology; i.e., “according to Dobson, a child is to be ‘trained’ as one would train his dog …The presupposition (not stated, but underlying the book) is that man is but another animal,” Excerpted from The Big Umbrella by Jay Adams, pp. 130-131.

I guess this explains also why Bright is a fan of Common Core. School Choice is the back door for common core to infiltrate all education, including private and home schooling. According to Charlotte Iserbyte, “Communist Core is NOT the issue. Those fighting Communist Core better wake up and realize that even if they kill Communist Core, if they do NOT oppose ALL forms of tax-supported School Choice and Charter Schools, they will wake up one day and find that their children in their favorite tax-supported choice private school are required by federal law (regulations) to take the Communist Core assessment (test) they thought they had killed! Why? Because when an education entity (private or public) accepts one penny of federal money it MUST adhere to federal regulations regarding curriculum, testing, hiring, etc., etc. And that is as it should be.”

School Choice is part of Agenda 21. Which begs the question, “Why would Bright sponsor anti-Agenda 21 legislation when he is also sponsoring UN Agendas?” Is it there to keep you from noticing what he is really working for?

Noted by me in a previous article was his attempt to make the office of State Superintendent of Education an appointed office and remove the people’s right to elect same.  He has introduced bills, S 0197 & S 0200, that takes the choice of Administrative Law court judges, Supreme Court justices, Appeals court judges and Circuit Court judges out of the hands of the people and make them appointed offices. Looks like an attempt to remove anyone who doesn’t agree with Bright’s agenda or the agenda of his handlers.

I think it is a question that deserves an answer, Is he just that naïve or is he really working toward implementing Agenda 21 while at the same time decrying it?


Lee Bright…The Next Closet Progressive?

I guess the best replacement for Lindsey Graham should be a guy who wants more government intrusion in your life. A quick look at his site is all it takes to see how much he supports bigger government intrusion into the lives of Americans.

Reading from his site “There are many alternatives that have proven to be successful such as charter schools, real school choice that supports private schools and home-schooling as well as programs where private and public schools work together.
South Carolina needs to attract the type of businesses that will strengthen the state’s economy and in turn improve communities.  This type of economic goal requires nothing short of a school system that produces a competitive workforce.”

Translation, Bright is for government control of private and home schooling as well as public schools. He has tried to introduce legislation (S 0279) to promote tax credits for private schools. Sounds good until you realize a tax credit is the same as receiving money from the government which the Supreme Court has said gives the government control. This would open the door for Common Core in ALL education.

But what is more interesting was his attempt to make the office of State Superintendent of Education an appointed office and remove the people’s right to elect same. That seems to be another goal of Senator Bright, to make several elected offices appointed positions, mainly judges. He has introduced bills, S 0197 & S 0200, that takes the choice of Administrative Law court judges, Supreme Court justices, Appeals court judges and Circuit Court judges out of the hands of the people and make them appointed offices. How better to remove power from the people.

In his bio Bright is listed as a member of the Board of Director for Palmetto Family Council, an offshoot of James Dobson’s Focus on the Family, a front group for Federal take over of private education. In an article “Behind The Conservative Curtain” (See link below) we read,

Charter Schools:  Same Old Goals 2000

Charter Schools, and Choice (vouchers & tuition tax credits) have been  incorporated into the GOALS 2000 legislation:

 

Public Law 103-227GOALS  2000: Educate America Act [1994] SEC. 308 State Use of [GOALS 2000] Funding-(b)  Each state that receives an allotment under this title shall(2) use the  remainder of the assistance…to implement the State improvement plan, [for  activities] such as …(I) promoting… public charter schools and other  mechanisms for increasing choice among public schools…(J) supporting  activities [where] schools contract with private management organizations to  reform a school.

It is  important to note that the above sub-section (J) suggests a plan to move public  schools under “private management.”

In my article “South Carolina’s Fed Gun Grab Enabling Bill…S 115 “Constitutional Carry” Act.”  I have shown how Bright has tried to introduce legislation that would enable  Federal agents, as well as officers from other states, free range in SC. He has no problem with pro-gun legislation because he wants to enable the feds to take your guns.

Then there was S 0185 which would put everyone on the government dole. Known as the “Fair Tax” we are seeing Cloward/Piven  rear it’s ugly head. Forget the welfare rolls, let’s get everyone on board with the tax rolls.

Links for better understanding of what is being supported by Lee Bright:

http://www.newswithviews.com/Nelson/kelleigh195.htm

Charter Schools, Character Education & the Eugenics Internationale
Behind the Conservative Curtain:
Pseudo Grassroots Organizations Front
for Corporate/Government Takeover

The Intelligent Student’s Guide to the New World Order
Update:

When I wrote this article I used a link on Bright’s website that
linked to the SC Legislation site to see what bills he sponsored. That link, http://www.scstatehouse.gov/sponsorsearch.php ,
has since disappeared. Does he have something to hide? I also discovered that
the Mace Group designed his
website. Curious.

Update:    I have recently discovered, according to his statement of economic interest with the SC State Ethics Commission, that Bright attended an ALEC (American Legislative Exchange Council) conference and received travel expenses from Mulikin Law Firm, the state corporate co-chair of ALEC in SC. For those unaware, ALEC is a non-profit where legislators and corporations come together to write model legislation for the legislators to come home and introduce. I also learned ALEC has model legislation in support of TTIP & TTP. Included in these treaties is the investor-to-state dispute settlement (ITSDS). This is where corporations in a state can call for arbitration if any laws are passed that they believe will cost them future revenue. This gets into the billions of dollars.

Well,  Bright has introduced S 82 (120th Congress)  which lowers the corporate tax base in an attempt to get companies to come to SC, economic developement if you will, which sounds great except for the looming ITSDS that ALEC is pushing. It also begs the question, where does the missing revenue for the state come from? What if no new business comes to town? Why not rid the homeowners of the burden of keeping up infrastructure that sits empty or puts the real strain on infrastructure if occupied? Will these companies or their new employees pay your property taxes if you can’t? Why not look out for all the people of the state, the job he is supposed to do, instead of a select few?  And who gets to pick up the tab if the state loses arbitration?

Sorry, but if it walks like a duck , quacks like a duck and takes money from Bank of America like a duck….

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